One of the ways we have available to us now is digitally chronicling our lives. There’s time hop and then Facebook shortly jumped on that bandwagon with their On This Day feature. Well today I found something I wanted to share here.
It’s a note I wrote on Facebook entitled: Why Textual Culture is both giving me and helping me through an existential dilemma. Textual Culture was one of the classes I was taking the semester after I got engaged and ended up being one of my favorite classes from my time in grad school (definitely top five). The note kind of speaks for itself so I won’t preface it any further. I’m so glad it popped up today:
I have tagged you in this note either because I know you’ve lost someone this year or I greatly respect your ideas about life and theatre. Or both. I also ran out of tagging capability before I could get to everyone…
Yesterday in textual culture, Professor Menzer posited that the greatest theatrical events are also the saddest because theatre is ephemeral, the transience leaves us with a longing to experience that specific event again, which can never be. In true mirror up to nature form, I think perhaps the same axiom is true of human lives. This is true in the microcosm of lives: the best moments are what bring painful nostalgia (Will I ever go a week without a sharp heartache to return to the Edinburgh Fringe Festival?) But it also seems true in the big picture: The most wonderful lives are the most grievous to realize we don’t get back again. I have experienced this feeling too much this year and I have watched others experience the same, some even greater losses. In a strange way it really helped me to remember that the grief is attached to an immense amount of love and greatness. I just thought I would offer up this idea I’ve been musing over the past several hours and send it out to the world in the hopes that it would either be a shred of comfort or a forum for good thoughts. If it does neither I am sorry and I hope you will take the knowledge of my love and prayers as remonstrance. (And that goes for others I ran out of room to tag or those I didn’t think of in my morning haze of writing this…)
“The pain I feel now is the happiness I had before. That’s the deal.”-C.S. Lewis
“Blessed are they who mourn. They shall be comforted.” -Matthew 4:4